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July 23rd, 2009

03:13 am - Time Flys... It's hard to believe that after everything that's happened to me over the years that I'd finally end up happy. It's been a little over three very long years since I nearly lost it all in Los Angeles. The day the apocalypse and all hell broke loose in LA was the day my whole world changed again. I was ready to let just walk away and leave Lilah to her own devices, only problem was I got half way down that sewer tunnel and realized what had been staring me in the face for six months, was the truth. I was in love with her and I had nothing left in the so called 'City of Angels' except her. So after I saved her and got her patched up, we left town. We just ran as fast and as far as we could, we were in the middle of nowhere Iowa on a lonely stretch of open road as the sun started to rise when I asked her to marry me, and at first she'd said no, but she didn't leave me like I thought for sure she would. No three months later when we'd finally settled down in our current home of Providence Rhodes Island; gotten jobs and basically put our lives back together, she came home one night crawled into bed beside me and simply said yes to my so long ago proposal. A year later we were happily married and had a baby on the way. Living with Lilah's never been easy, but dealing with a pregnant Lilah was just that much worse, but I stayed through it all and it was more than worth the bruised hand I got and her swearing I was never touching her again. It's been three years since our darling little girl Samantha was born, and she's the most perfect little girl in the world. She's got my blue eyes and Lilah's hair and looks. She's also the smartest three year old I know. She goes to take care two days a week, and Lilah insists on calling her Sam, because she knows it annoys me. I work as a linguistics and demonology professor at the local college and Lilah still works for Wolfram and Hart much to my dismay, but it makes her happy and my work doesn't get in the way so things are okay on that front. There's just one little problem to all of this happy family bliss I've gained, I've never told Lilah that I've got a little bit of magical ability. The worst part is that I might have given said magical genes to our darling three year old, but there's no way to tell until something happens. Part of me hopes for all our sakes that it's skipped a generation or something; I want Samantha to have as normal a childhood as possible. Current Location: Our house Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: The day before you-Rascal Flatts

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July 17th, 2009

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April 23rd, 2009

07:53 pm - Who Needs The World When I've Got You It's been about two weeks since Cordelia had called me and I'd hung up on her,since then though things with Lilah and myself have been going wonderfully. I never thought that I'd be living on a beach in Maine of all places with Lilah. In the short time since I showed up here and moved in with her I've bought myself a blue sporty convertible, opened up my own small bookstore on the boardwalk at the beach. Yeah life here is great and as an added bonus there are actual seasons here in Maine. I decided after closing up the shop today to take a drive along the beach road, before heading home to have dinner with Lilah. So I hopped into my car and switched the radio came on to a song that I thought suited my relationship with Lilah perfectly. I smiled and turned it up as I drove down the coastline road. "People tell me you stay where you belong But all my life, I've tried to prove them wrong They say I'm looking for Something that can't be found They say I'm missing out My feet don't touch the ground But there are moments when you can't deny what's true Just an ordinary day like when I met you It's funny how life can take new meaning When you came and changed what I believed in The world on the outside's trying to pull me in But they can't touch me Cause I got you... I got you...oh yeah I want to thank you for all of the things you've done But most for choosing me to be the one It's funny how life can take new meaning When you came and changed what I believe in The world on the outside's trying to pull me in But they can't touch me Cause I got you... And it hits me when I reach for you That I'm afraid you won't be there Maybe I am in too deep But I don't care... I'm right where I belong I got you Yeah, prove them wrong... I've got you, yeah Can't deny what's true, No They can't touch me, baby I got you... I got you... Right where I belong Oh yeah.. I've got you baby.. Right where I belong.. Can't deny what's true.. No they can't touch me, Cause I...got you" I continued to smile and hum along with the song as I drove. I eventually arrived at home and walked into the living room after noticing that Lilah's car was in the driveway, signaling that she was home. "Lilah?" I called as I looked around the empty living room for her. Current Mood: cheerful

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July 11th, 2007

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08:32 pm - Things you never really plan.. It'd been a day just like any other day in the past few weeks. I had come back from a cse after sending my men home, and I checked my messages. I had one from my father, informing me that my parents knew about Lilah, well not her specifically, but they knew I had someone. And he told me that they wished to meet this mysterious woman, whom I had been spending most of my time with, and neglected to inform them of. I sighed and shut off the machine, then went to take a shower. Once I was done with my shower and dressed again I looked over some emails and checked a few references in some of my books. I glanced at the clock a few times, I knew that Lilah was sure to be stopping by at some point today. I had yet to figure out if I was actually going to take my parents up on their.. offer that I come home for a week long visit. I got up from the sofa and walked into the kitchen to get a glass of scotch, just as I heard the knock on my door. A small smile spread across my face; as I clanced at the clock, she was early. I finished pouring my glass of scotch, then finally around the fourth knock went to open the door. I opened it and leaned against it. "Slow day at the office?" I asked her once I'd opened the door. Slow days or bordom were about the only times that Lilah ever showed up on my doorstep before ten in the evening. ((Open to Lilah)) Current Mood: calm

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08:27 pm - Time to straighten things out.. Once we'd all gotten home and into the house, things were still tense and quiet. I headed to the liquor cabinet and poured two glasses of scotch. I knew Lilah and I would need it for this. I waited for Samantha sat down on the sofa, when she walked right past it and tried to head for the stairs I was annoyed. "Samantha, get back here and sit down" I kept my voice as calm as possible, while still trying to get my point across. She seemed to pick up on this and sat down immediately. I sighed. "You've been skipping your science class and not doing the assignments, for a few months now according to Mr. Phillips." She looked at the floor, then at me and Lilah. "Well like I tried to tell you he's a crazy demon, who's out to get me." I sighed deeper this time. "Samantha you know that isn't something to be taken lightly in this house given the sort of lives your mother and I lead." She looked at me with a somewhat hurt expression. " You just don't want me to be right, you'd rather he was just some regular teacher that I don't like, so that it easily explains why I've been slacking off in his class, or skipping it. Or maybe you're still hung up on the fact that he's a twisted, sick freak, who slept with mom, in order for her to even ace his class. Which you given who we're talking about that's pretty low even for her." I glared at her now quickly moving from being merely annoyed to angry. "Samantha.." "What dad it's true the guy is in no way a catch, well at least not anymore. I guess he might've been back then.." I watched as she started to get up off the sofa again. I had no bloody clue how to handle this, Samantha wasn't helping matters by reminding me what Lilah had done in her teens to pass her science class. I turned to Lilah for help, as Samantha was once again trying to make a break for it. Current Mood: angry

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January 23rd, 2007

07:03 pm - New Surroundings and surprises It'd been a few months since Angel had taken over the Firm. And so far things had been going rather well. Giles and Willow joined the team not too long ago. Willow was loving having her own department. And Giles had been a big help to Wesley with his work. Angel asked them to join and they thankfully accepted. And as for Lilah, she was allowed to stay on as the liaison to the Senior Partners. The partners also fully restored her. Fred finally had her lab to work in after all this time. Spike was brought back by the amulet that Lilah had given to Angel before he left for SunnyDale. Although thanks to the amulet Spike is incorporeal. He and Lilah have also proven to be a constant source of annoyance for Angel. It perhaps hasn't helped matters that Angel’s against Wesley and Lilah seeing each other. They have been doing so off and on; though lately it's been more off mostly due to work. When team Angel first started here Wes wasn't sure it would work. But he had to admit in the last two months alone, they've done more good in that time, than they ever did in two weeks before taking over here. Everyone's managed to form a steady routine. Wesley works with Giles and others in their research department, going over manuscripts and ancient texts. Willow's still settling into her department. Angel has his monthly or sometimes daily meetings with Lilah. Wes tries not to leave them alone in a room together for long. Otherwise there could be some blood shed. Wesley had sent Giles down to the Files and Records basement over an hour ago to check for anymore missing pieces of the ancient karlash demon text, that they had spent the last several hours working on trying to translate. Giles was sifting through what felt like box after box of files, until he found one that he thought might prove useful. He took out the files that had been in the box and looked through them. As he shifted the papers around a photograph fell out of the stack of papers and fluttered to the ground. Giles set the small stack of papers down, and bent to retrieve the fallen photograph. He picked it up and studied it closely. “Interesting...” He thought out loud as he looked at the photo. The photo in his had was of Wesley, Lilah and a little girl whom Giles didn’t recall ever having seen or heard about. He tucked the photo away inside his jacket pocket, and made a note to ask Wesley about it later. After placing the photo in his jacket Giles picked up the stack of files and returned them to the box after making sure none of them would help further their research. He then headed back upstairs to the main lobby. Wesley was still in his office sitting at his desk head bent over his latest case file. ((Open to Anyone)) Current Location: my Office Current Mood: busy

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December 15th, 2006

09:18 pm - The Arrival of Guests: Let the berating fest begin time_changes I spent the entire day making sure the whole house was spotlessly clean. I sent Samantha up to her room to clean, after I had her clean the kitchen. She’s been in her room for the past hour. I'd like to think she's cleaning, but I know better. It's more likely that she's agonizing over what to wear. After Lilah had informed me that my Mother called, I’d reluctantly called her back. I found out that she and my father were indeed coming out to Los Angeles for a visit. According to my mother they planned to stay in Los Angeles for the week. She told me that they'd be getting a car to take them from the airport to the hotel, before they come here. I looked at the clock again. They'll be here in three hours, and the house isn’t clean yet. I know my mother is sure to find something wrong with the house, no matter how clean I get it. And if she says something about it, father will no doubt blame jump right in to back her up, by claming the reason for the mess is all Lilah’s fault. I can just hear the condescending remark now. ”Honestly Wesley I thought your wife would at least know how to keep a proper household.” My parents impending visit is all I’ve been able to think about for days now, since Lilah told me they were going to be arriving. I glanced at the clock on the hallway wall once more, before going to the bottom of the stairs. “Samantha turn down that bloody music and you had better be cleaning, or at least finding something decent to wear. And for god sake Samantha please hurry up!” I yelled up the stairs to her. After I reminded my daughter to finish cleaning her room, and to make absolutely sure she came back downstairs in something presentable, I went into the kitchen. Once in the kitchen I quickly started to grab all the bottle of alcohol that we owned. I gathered them all up in my arms, and proceeded to lock them away in the third cabinet on the right. Just as I was trying to hide all of the alcohol Lilah chose that precise moment to walk into the kitchen. I stopped what I was doing and looked at her. “I uh... I’m cleaning” I explained as Lilah continued to watch me from her spot in the doorway. Judging from the expression on her face she knows that I’m lying. I sighed as I set all the bottles I had left onto the counter. ‘I don’t think I’ll be able to survive them coming to stay for a week, even if they won’t be staying in our house.” I leaned heavily against the kitchen counter. Because I don't think I'll be able to use Samantha as a buffer for very long, once they walk through the door. I sighed for what felt like the tenth time today and looked over at Lilah, who was clearly wondering why I thought it necessary to stash away all of our very expensive alcohol. ((Open to Lilah, Sam, and Parents)) Current Mood: rushed

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December 6th, 2006

08:12 pm - Researching x2ndxchance ( getting her back ) Current Location: My Office Current Mood: determined Current Music: Silence

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06:37 pm - trying to move on.. x2ndxchance ( Trying to do good by her ) Current Location: My Apartment Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: Some soft Lulaby on the stereo

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November 10th, 2006

07:33 pm - New begininngs... _dark_horizons I Sat in my new office facing, the window. I was going over everything that had happened, in the last few hours. Lilah'd showed me around the offices, I even had a secretary. I think her name was Linda or maybe it was Megan, I don't really remember. I sat staring out at the city lights, my office was still dark. I do however remember the look on my friends faces when I agreed to take over. They were shocked, disappointed, Fred tried to talk me out of it, Gunn thought I'd finally lost it. Lorne hadn't said much just looked at me in shock. Cordy and Angel well they just said it was all mine and walked out of the building the others in tow. An hour after they left the Senior Partners took Lilah back, even after I'd insisted she was to stay. My secretary came in around midnight to inform me that everyone else had gone home. She wanted to know if she could leave as well. I said yes, and now it's just me all alone in my 'New kingdom.' I took one last look at the glittering city, then started to my penthouse apartment that sits above the Firm. Once I got changed and got into bed, I still couldn't sleep. My mind was to preoccupied with memories of things used to be. Mostly memories of my time spent with Lilah. As well as some better ones with my friends,well ex-friends now I guess. And the overwhelming fact that I was truly alone this time around. I didn't entertain the notion that the Partners would allow her to stay here, given our past history. But that didn't stop me from missing her any less. Sighing I laid back against the pillows, just as I heard the door to my bedroom turning. I sat back up and stared at the dark wood door. "Who's there?" I called out never taking my eyes off the door. Current Location: My Penthouse Bedroom Current Mood: anxious Current Music: someone knocking at the door

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August 4th, 2006

01:29 am - Four Long Days of_this It's been four days since I locked Lilah in the meat locker in the basement. None of the others supsect anything out of the ordinary. Which is good it's just like I thought. Cordy was off with Fred doing shopping or something. Angel and Connor were out patroling the city. Charles was off helping his old street crew I think. Which left Lorne and myself in the hotel. I'd hauled myself up in my office. Looking over some case files and other paperwork. Lorne poked his head in about an hour or so, after I'd gotten some head way on the paperwork. I looked up at him. "What is it Lorne?" He looked at me for a long moment,before sighing. 'I'm not going to even try and understand, what she was to you,but maybe it'd help if you talked about it. You know be non British and actually admit that you're grieving.' I set my pen down, and leaned back in my chair. "You know Lorne you're right. I do miss her, and I'm going to need some time to come to terms with it all." I sighed. He just offered up a cheerful smile and nodded. 'Ok good I'm glad you're at least admitting that you've lost her and that you're going to need time to be able to deal with, and eventually accept it.' "Not to sound harsh Lorne,but is this little pep talk over? Because I do have some work to do." He nodded again,then walked off towards the garden. I waited a little while to make sure he was gone before heading done to the basement. I took the keys out of my pocket as I walked down the stairs. I stopped infront of the meat locker. I noticed the little window was frosted over, so I took my sleeve and wiped it,so that I could see inside,without having to actually open the door. Well not yet anyway. She seemed to be alright,from what little I could see through the small window. Looking at her through the window I began to speak, knowing that even through the thick door she'd be able to hear me clearly. "If I open the door are you going to play nice?" I asked as I held onto the keys. I imagine,that being a newly made vampire,even after four days she must be starving. Since she hasn't had any more blood than the pigs blood I gave her the first time. Current Location: Basement of the Hyperion Hotel Current Mood: enthralled Current Music: keys jingling

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January 12th, 2006

10:16 pm - years_gone_by I watched Samantha yell at Lilah,then walk out. As I heard Angel speak I followed his gaze over to Lilah. I've never seen her look so pissed off and hurt at the same time. She gave Angel a big speech about how having Samantha here hurt,how she can't ever have anything to do with her. I know The Senior Partners wanted Samantha out of the way,what I don't know is why. And Lilah seems to prefer that we just find a way to send the girl back. I looked at Angel, as Lilah walked out the door. the last thing Lilah said was still ringing in my ears. "So it doesn't matter what she remembers or what any of you say. That girl, no matter what she may be, can never bring me anything except pain." "She'll come around,She probably just needs time.." I sighed. I hope that's true,because I don't really care how we lost her,at least now we have Samantha back. We got a second chance,one I plan to take advantage of. "But Maybe you're right ,about Willow helping.Could you call her and have her come here?" I figured it was best to let Samantha and Lilah be alone to cool down and give them each sometime to think. [Open to Angel,then Willow} Current Mood: discontent

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October 17th, 2005

10:25 pm - musings.... years_gone_by It's been a few years since we took over the Firm. And so far things have been going rather well. Giles and Willow joined us not too long ago. Willow's loving having her own department. And Giles has Been a big help to me with my work. Angel asked them to join us and they thankfully accepted. And as for Lilah, she's the liaison to the Senior Partners. And a constant source of annoyance for Angel. It perhaps hasn't helped matters that he's against us seeing each other. We've been doing so off and on, though lately it's been more off mostly due to work. When we first started here I wasn't sure it would work. But I have to admit in the last three years alone, we've done more good in that time, than we ever did in two weeks before taking over here. Everyone's managed to form a steady routine. I work with Giles and others in our department, going over manuscripts and ancient texts. Willow's still settling into her department. Angel has his monthly or sometimes daily meetings with Lilah. We try not to leave them alone in a room together for long. Otherwise there could be some blood shed. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: soft classical music

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